Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Letter to an aspiring writer

“Hi Michael!  I would love to talk to you about your experiences in Journalism as a whole. As a young journalist starting out, I find myself covering things that I sometimes do not understand. I'd also like to talk to you about freelance work and things like that. My cell is 908-XXX-XXXX. Please reach"

Dear writer:

First a poem/song about writing or singing:

There's a kid out on my corner hear him strumming like a fool

Shivering in his dungarees but still he's going to school

His cheeks are made of peach fuzz, his hopes may be the same

But he's signed up as a soldier out to play the music game

There are fake patches on his jacket

He's used bleach to fade his jeans

With a brand new stay-pressed shirt

And some creased and wrinkled dreams

His face a blemish garden but his eyes are virgin clear

His voice is Chicken Little's, but he's hearing Paul Revere

When he catches himself giggling

He forces up a sneer
Though he'd rather have a milk shake
He keeps forcing down the beer

Just another folkie, late in coming down the pike

Riding his guitar, he left Kid brother with his bike

And he's got Guthrie running in his bones

He's the hobo kid who's left his home

And his Beatles records and the Rolling Stones

This boy is staying acoustic

There's Seeger singing in his heart

He hopes his songs will somehow start

To heal the cracks that split apart

America gone plastic

And now there's Dylan dripping from his mouth

He's hitching himself way down south

To learn a little black and blues

From old street men who paid their dues

’Cause they knew they had nothing to lose

They knew it, so they just got to it

With cracked old Gibsons and red clay shoes

Playing 1 4 5 chords like good news

And cursed with skin that calls for blood

They put their face and feet in mud
But oh, they learned the music from way down there
The real ones learn it somewhere

Strum your guitar, sing it kid

Just write about your feelings, not the things you never did

Inexperience, it once had cursed me

But your youth is no handicap, it's what makes you thirsty.


What Harry is telling us about this kid is he wants to be a folk singer. He can't sing very well, bur he tells the kid to do it anyhow. He sees a passion in the kid and wants to encourage it.

And so I have to ask you, is writing your passion?

Here's what my favorite author, Robert Heinlien, says about writing: "Writing is not necessarily something to be ashamed of, but do it in private and wash your hands afterwards."

But just in case you still want to write, I will tell you a secret : WRITE. Write like it was your full-time job. Research like it is your full-time job. Edit like it's your full-time job. Because writing is your full-time passion.

You must write. You can't talk about wanting to be a writer. You won't become one by taking courses. You have to put your hands on a keyboard and start typing. And finish what you start. You'll never sell a damn thing if you don't. And as soon as you submit it for publication, write something else.

So let's talk about journalism. If you want to be in print media such as newspapers and magazines. There is little chance you will be able to do so. After all, there are thousands of unemployed journalists out there because print is dying and everything is electronic. That doesn't mean a damn thing. Do it anyhow because you'll become a far better writer. 

Newspapers don't pay very much. I started writing for the Morris County (NJ) Daily Record in 1968 when I was a college freshman. They paid a magnificent sum of $12.50 to be a "stringer" -- a freelance writer hired to cover a town meeting. My first assignment was to cover the Victory Gardens town council. Victory Gardens is the smallest town in the state. But the mayor was getting very worried because the Borough had seen it's very first drug bust earlier in the week. He made a quick statement about it at the beginning of the meeting and gave me the copy. There were probably a dozen more important things going on.  There were zoning approvals, budget issues, master planning and the cost of utilities. But that little statement was what I grabbed.

I got back to the office and sat at a typewriter in complete panic. "How would this read in the  Record?" I asked myself at least a dozen times before I just wrote about what I had. Who?--the mayor; What? drug abuse: Where? Victory Gardens (the dateline); Why? Because the mayor said drugs were spreading; How? The mayor thought pushers from the town next door were moving in on town.

I took those basic questions and managed to spit our eight paragraphs. The desk cut it down to four 'graphs and used it as a filler on page 5. No byline.

But I had published something and I kept on getting assignments. I learned to know what the issues of town government was. Or so I thought. And I just kept writing the stories, about four nights a week. Copy began to flow much easier. I remember I went to a very controversial board of education meeting which was attended by more than 100 people. I immediately called the news desk to get a photographer and I wrote 8 takes (pages) about the meeting. They published every word and I had a front-page byline.

After writing for about six months, I went into the Army Reserves. When I returned, I began working for the competition, The Daily Advance.

And I had a beat. I started writing about Hackettstown, Mount Olive and Allamuchy. Two of those towns were the only ones in Warren County we covered so I covered the county freeholders and occasionally the county court. 

I got to know a lot of politicians and civic leaders, as well as just plain people. This was the time when young Christians were becoming known as "Jesus Freaks." and that stirred a bit of controversy. And I looked for controversy throughout the town. And I found the most at the Hackettstown Council meeting. There always seemed to be problems. And I wrote about them. My editors loved it and gave me pretty much free rein on my articles.

And then came election night. The Republicans had a five-to-one majority on the council but lost the two seats that were up that year. After getting a couple of quotes from the Mayor, I went over to the Democrats party. Suddenly all the people who had been complaining about the "problems" were there. I felt I had been sucker punched. 

I spent the next year trying to be more balanced. And we endorsed the Republicans the next year.

I also managed to get a number of feature stories. Google Paula Grossman. She was a transexual music teacher who lost his job when he became a she. This was happening in Bernards Township, well out of our circulation area. I mentioned to my editor that he/she was my music teacher for three years. He got that manic grin on his face and insisted I go to Plainfield and interview her. 

And so I wrote my first major feature story. It was more than 1,000 words and it started on the front page and jumped to page three, tying up nearly half the page. 

The lead was like this: "

PLAINFIELD -- "My, you've changed," said Paula Grossman as she welcomed me to her modest Tudor home. "But then, who am I to talk?"  Paula has indeed changed. When she taught me in the Bernards Township schools, she was a he named Paul.

The story was one of the hardest I ever had to write. I had to do research on sex changes, and it wasn't available in our local libraries, nor in the newly-opened library at the local community college. I had to do my research at Rutgers University's main campus and also had to talk with the Board of Education members and their lawyer. I also did phone interviews with doctors. 

It took about 20 hours to do the story. I did the interview on a Monday morning and turned it in on Tuesday close to midnight. That story was a turning point for me. While I did a lot of town meetings, I also began to search out human interest stories. And I was trusted with more assignments. I became the reporter on the Presidential election, following candidates as they stumped the state. I was very tight with our convention delegates and had on-the-scene accounts of what was happening at the national conventions. 

I finally ended my days as a beat reporter and covered the courthouse, which included the prosecutor's office. I had a solid relationship with then Judge Brendan Byrne and managed to get him to pose for a photo by his office door (photos were banned in the courthouse in those days) as he left to run for New Jersey governor. The photo made the state AP wire.

There were a lot of good times with my fellow reporters. Most of us were single (It's kind of tough to find someone when we worked every night until 1 a.m.). And so we went to a local diner to solve all the problems of the world, staying until about 3 a.m. One night, we spotted a man wanted for murder and called the cops from the pay phone. Within minutes there were at least 20 cops there. Our Photographer was hanging with us and he got a photo that went national. We made the new guy go back to the newsroom and write the story, but we also phoned it in to back up. It's the only time I've ever seen six bylines. 

Four years after that Victory Gardens story, I had it with writing about the same things. I took an opening with a weekly newspaper. I wanted to do more than just write. I wanted to learn layout, editing and general newspaper management. Those days we had type set and pasted up our weekly 20 pages. In addition to doing some reporting, I wrote a weekly column and one about off-road motorcycles won a New Jersey Press Association award,

It was a great run, but Journalism never paid enough to support a family. I hated to stop it, but a pregnant wife forced me to take a job pushing photographic products as a technical writer. After a couple of years, I had a reputation and was offered a job editing a trade magazine for professional photographers. After that, five years working for Canon USA’s ad agency writing technical materials, press releases, price lists, and more.

The career went on. I wrote stuff for the inventor of the MRI scanner, countless articles for business trade magazines and more until I developed carpal tunnel syndrome after an auto accident. And so I had a second career as a school teacher, making kids write about history.

These days, I don’t write for anyone but myself. I don’t care who reads it. I’m retired. But I still have a passion for it. I’ve travelled cross country four times and have gone up and down the Atlantic and Pacific coasts. I’ve been in 112 degree heat in the Badlands, and under four feet of blizzard in the same place.

So kid, if you want to be a writer. Just write.






Nixon's the one

In this brave new Republican world, I have suddenly realized that Richard Nixon would be a far superior candidate to any of the remaining GOP contestants --- not to mention those who have dropped out. Trump? Did you know the Brits call farts "trumps."

Trump vs. Obama, it is such a contrast. The hater compared to the reasoned intellectual. It seems like Karma is triumphant! For eight years we've had loudmouth, vicious group of people determined to oppose any and all proposals, no matter how reasonable. And now, America could get the epitome of this mindless opposition that has ripped us asunder in the White House.

As I recently saw on a post: “If Trump wins the election, it will be the first time in history that a billionaire moved into public housing vacated by a black family.”

Yes, I am seriously thinking of becoming  an ex-patriot. I have a friend who has lived for decades in Costa Rica. Canada is a better option, but I hate the cold. 

I am no big fan of Hillary either. But she will probably be the first woman president. It could be the first time in memory that someone could win every state. But somehow we are in a political mess that has never been seen in our history. I began voting in 1968. The bottom line for me has always been that I will vote for the candidate who has the most integrity, no matter what their politics. How can I make a choice?


A few quotes from my son's Facebook posts:
"I'd like to remind everyone that voting for the devil you know is still voting for the devil. That is all"
" I could be talking about some carpetbagging bitch who deliberately used our state as stepping stone to get where she's at now or some billionaire douche that campaigned to kick a little old lady out of her house to build some shitty building. I just find it offensive that certain campaigns keep saying "New Yorkers KNOW this candidate". Yeah we know them real good... as complete fucking assholes. Not naming names or anything. Just pointing out that they seem to think us New Yorkers are the stupidest people in the nation."
Matt -- You have expressed it far better than I could.


Diabetic Decisions

Note: From time to time I will update you regarding the diabetic numbers and pounds. When I wrote this, I was 252 lbs. I am now 245, having lost seven lbs. My sugar levels, which were averaging in the 280s--380s, have come way down, ranging between 103 and 237 (right after meals). (May3, 2016)

For nearly a decade, I have lived with pain in my shoulders, the worst being in the rotator cuff on my right side. It was a result of an industrial accident. Within a few weeks, the pain deadened somewhat but I had a great deal of pain when I reached up -- which wasn't much fun when I had to change oil filters, which I was doing at the time.

But that, plus a number of other issues, put me on permanent disability. After turning 65. I could work if I could and I did some seasonal work for a few times while on the road from 2010 until last year. But the pain continued to worsen. I tried having steroids injected into my back. The first time I had some relief, the next time practically nothing. So the pain doctor referred me to a spinal surgeon, who in turn had me see a neurologist and an orthopedic surgeon. The orthopedist took an X-Ray and discovered there was some calcium build up by my rotator cuff which was the primary cause of the pain.

He said I'm not a candidate for surgery because of my diabetic condition. So he gave me a cortisone shot and that helped. A second one about a week ago further relieved the condition to a point I could comfortably swim and throw a ball -- which had been impossible since the original injury in 2004.

And then I had a couple of falls. The first one wasn't too bad really. I tripped on an old fashioned slate sidewalk in my home town of Morristown, and wound up landing on my stomach. I was on the way to the Mayo center at the old Community theater. A couple of people stopped and helped me up. I had the wind knocked out of me and my clothes were a mess, but I got away with a mild sprain to my left wrist. In a way, it was ironic. I used to jog along the sidewalk which was near the church I attended. It was also the first time in more than 59 years that I went to the theater, where I ushered in the 1960s.

A few days later, I had a fall that was much worse. While planting a garden, I tripped ontte a landsctape log and as I stumbled forward, I tripped over a six-inch slate  wall in the garden. I wound up smashing my face into the wall and landing on both elbows. I needed Emily to help me get up. My left elbow was in incredible pain and my right elbow had some major abrasions. My face was also a mess, but no doubt somewhat improved.

The pain in the left elbow was such that I was unable to lie down to sleep. Any pressure from the bed resulted in jolting pain. So I slept on a recliner where I could simply drop both elbows over the edge.

This happened on a Saturday, so I was unable to see my doctor until Monday morning. He ordered X-Rays. There is no fracture, thank the Lord, but there is a bone bruise. It's going to take more time than the normal healing process. Again because of the diabetes.

So we had a talk about the diabetes. The last time I was in the Hospital in October, my sugar levels were off the scale. I had a stroke, followed by a cardiac incident and am now taking medicine for both. And diabetes could have been a contributing factor. My feet have gotten bad. They are numb on the balls of each foot and the numbness is sneaking up to my toes and the sides of my feet.

We discussed medication. My current meds do now work well. And the three alternative meds he proposed will cost me hundreds of dollars a month, even with some coverage by my prescription plan. I simply can't pay it. While insulin is a possible option, the chances I would gain another 15-20 pounds were good. We then discovered that for nearly two decades, I had been taking my current meds wrong. I took them in the morning and the evening. But I would take the a.m. doses around 8 a.m. and not have breakfast until 11 a.m. I was taking the p.m. doses before going to bed.

WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.

I was supposed to take the meds with food--breakfast and dinner. It is why I have been plagued with diarrhea (a major side effect of the medication) for some time. It has reached a point where it is violent and strong. Over the past year, I have been unable to go from the living room to the bathroom in time and have made enough messes that I have been considering adult diapers. I keep several back up pairs of underpants and towels to clean myself up as I often haven't been able to reach a public restroom in time.

So this morning I took the meds with breakfast. And a normal bowel movement followed. Same with this evening. I know, -- way too much information. But it was important.

So the diabetes, which was discovered back in 1985, has been a slow and silent killer. It often makes me dizzy and I lose my balance. I've lost teeth because of it. My heart has A-Fib symptoms, my blood pressure is high and I'm taking around 20 pills a day. Not to mention ED.

It's time to decide to change. Today, I got up and my blood sugars were over 300. Normal is around100. I got it down to 169 after spending two hours in the gym doing treadmill and bicycle. I walked two miles, cycled five miles and burned nearly 500 calories. And I have to keep that type of thing up, not to mention stop pigging out. There are days I have only one meal. I start eating around 9 a.m. and keep it up past midnight. it's called "grazing" and it's killing me.

So here's what I'm going to do. The people of Facebook are very important to me. Once a week, I'm going to list my weight. It will give me motivation to work out daily, not just once in a while. I have two 50th year high school reunions coming up. I intend to show up not being the complete mess I am now. Please wish me well.